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Sunday, May 29th, 2005
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Friday, May 27th, 2005
5:00 am	High... *sigh* I don't want to give up on you... (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
12:02 pm	I'm done with this blog. Bye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:56 am	I have no lyrics to cut and paste; Just realised that I've been looking for the girl who'd sweep me off my feet but all this while I'd left her crying at the top of the escalator My one regret in life. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
9:47 pm	*sigh* She's definitely not making this easy for me. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
9:19 am	I think it'd only be fair to me, and hence to her, that we take a break. I just don't know how to put it across. 4 hours to go. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
2:38 pm	Another of my friends is in hospital. He got burnt on Saturday night while trying to do a flaming shot in his mouth, but instead of Sambuca he used Bacardi 151, a 75.5% vol alcohol which is the only alcohol I've seen to have a flamable warning sign on the bottle. I started the whole thing going with a flaming Sambuca. It lighted but didn't catch fire, so I swallowed it. The next guy, Rohan, is the only other person I know who actually likes Sambuca, and he did his with Sambuca too. Couldn't flame, so he swallowed. Naoki was next and he chose the 151 'cause he doesn't like Sabuca. After wiping his lips dry I put my hand in to light the flame... In a flash, things started to happen. The floor caught fire and Naoki's neck area was on fire. He stumbled out of the kitchen towards the other group of onlookers who tried desperately to pat the flames out. I figured I'd better take care of the burning floor, so I filled a nearby dustbin with water from the sink and threw it on the floor. By the time I looked up again, the flames on Naoki were out. His shirt was in a pile on the ground. He described a wall of flame in front up him as he was taking it off. We found out later that there was a hole in it. In all, the whole thing probably took less than 20 seconds, but it definitely felt much longer than that. His hair was singed and curly at the edges where his hair wax had melted away. We rushed him to the shower and had him stand under it while someone get his friend to bring car around to get him to the hospital. Doctor said second degree burns on neck, cheeks and left hand. He was scheduled for a skin graft operation this morning. Damn, this getting my friends into hospital thing is starting to worry me. It seems like I can take care of myself but not my friends. Fuck. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
2:46 pm	More and more often, my mind brings up the advice my guardian angel (who sits on my shoulder advising me on moral issues) gave me awhile ago - That I should stop it (the relationship) if I should ever have any doubts (about how it's going to turn out and stuff). *sigh* But I am happy, I really am. I haven't laughed so hard or so much in such a long time. But I have other needs, needs that she might not be able to satisfy. Sometimes I ask myself if these are needs, or merely wants. I don't know. I feel like Rex Van De Kamp. ;) (Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
6:46 pm	I thought that I was rid of it, but lying in bed today, I dreamt that I dreamt of her. It was so vivid - everything went according to how I'd imagined it in my head a thousand times. To add a touch of irony, she knew what was going on in my life, and had stayed in Vivian's room the year before. Familiar friends were in her company, old friends I'd not talked to in years. I woke up, unsure if I was better off awake or asleep - or perhaps, dead? But after some reflection, I realise that this is the exact same curse that was set upon me seven years ago. A curse I eventually succumbed to, I suppose. But that was without the knowledge that it's not about the girl whom I dream of - it's all about the past and what might have been. I shall exorcise this beast within me, but increasingly I feel - know - that this won't be the one that grants me this salvation. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
10:11 am	Haven't updated in awhile... guess I've been pretty occupied recently. Sleeping more and going out more too. Life's as good as it gets over here in CMU I guess... can't complain, really. Now just ambivalent towards heading home to Singapore - can't wait to meet old friends while at the same time don't wanna miss somebody in my life again. *sigh* I guess nobody said this would be easy. Watching her sleep now, next to me, I can't help but wonder... what'll it be like next year? I guess we'll just have to wait and see. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
11:31 pm	:| --> :) --> :D Getting happier. Unfortuantely, also getting sick. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
4:40 pm	Round and round in circles we go... where will this bring us? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
12:56 am	Today was a good day - I thoroughly enjoyed myself shopping with two girls. I'm also glad that I didn't hold back, because I think she just needs time to get used to the fact that we're no longer "just friends"... (Holding hands in Constantine; awww... how sweet, if I may say so myself) (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
11:16 am	Actually it's more of being afraid of getting hurt. I dunno... is drawing back and not putting so much into the r/s a satisfactory defence mechanism? Or is there a better way? I don't want to give the impression that I'm counting favours - I'm not... it's just that I don't wanna be bitten, but everytime I think of that I imagine people telling me that I have to commit for it to work out. Sigh... I'm not use to being on the other end. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
12:43 pm	The perennial question: How much should I put into the relationship? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 1st, 2005
3:31 pm	Never realised that she's that tall. (Comment on this)
2:39 am	All in all it's been an eventful week, culminating in another 25%-of-the-final-grade exam tomorrow. I'm glad the studying for that is done. Really looking forward to any fun and games I can have tomorrow and the rest of the weekend :D She's adorable. (Damn, couldn't resist that) (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
4:27 am	Just watched Million Dollar Baby. Must Hillary Swank die in every show I watch with her in it? (Ok... just this and Boys Don't Cry) Anyway, loved the show - don't understand why Clint Eastwood didn't get best actor though... Jamie Foxx must be awesome in Ray. Gotta see that. (Comment on this)
Friday, March 25th, 2005
3:45 am	Gragh. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
7:32 pm	I H.A.T.E. being S.I.C.K. (4 Comments |Comment on this)